And in one day, it was 16 of November 1997, Sunday (for me) my friend Irina came to visit me and I showed her possibilities of internet and how it is cool. When she left me in the middle of day may be 3.00 p.m I decided to spend time in Yahoo chat because it was bored. And when I came online one guy began to introduce with me. It was Forest. I wrote as I did before simple information about him… Ted, 34y.o, Rochester, 180lbs, 5'8". It is funny but more later I saw he did same thing, he wrote short notes about women. I can understand him, because he as I had many contacts with women and it was useful don't mix people and don't be in silly situation…lol. When we began to talk with him I didn't like his profession video/producer/director. I knew people from art are not serious, not responsible, so I didn't expect from this meeting nothing interesting. We exchanged with him e-mails I got photo from him in same day, it was moment from show with Ted, Coralee and Ray. When I got pic I thought: "O, my god, again ugly fat guy with beard sent me pic"..lol and I asked Sergey to read note to this letter to know certainly who is who. I couldn't believe I got photo from handsome guy. I sent him my photo back. What Ted thought when he got my first picture we should ask him. Then we began to write each other every day. At first it was letters about our countries, about cultures and our families. It was letters of friends. I noticed Ted is very clever person and it is interesting with him, he can tell many interesting things and also he was interesting of me, of my world around me. He told me he was separated and wasn't ready to have new serious relationship, his heart was sick of last marriages. In this time he had enought women around him Terie (I noticed on pic of Thangiving he was in wedding ring, although he told me that decided to divorce with her.), Deb, Lori…and may be others which I don't know…lol

I also was married, but I didn't tell him about it because I was afraid he will not interest me… I was right. I felt very uncomfortable from this it was usual for me to tell untruth. I even didn't know why I wanted to introduce with people who live through ocean, so far from me. I understood might be I never will not see these people in my life. If for Ted was possible to find somebody from internet and to meet in real life in his country…for me it wasn't. I liked how many men told me how I am pretty and beautiful, but very fast I got used to that. Very fast we began to flirt with Ted and to write tender letters to each other. I wanted very much he began to like me as woman, that he saw in me not only good friend also wish woman. His letters were long and interesting. I spent a lot time of translation of them with dictionary and writing back. It was good, I studied many new words. In one moment I began to think may be he is woman?

Why his letters are so nice and interesting? It saw he was understanding me very good, he understood my soul. He was very patient with me in understanding me and explaining of meaning new words. There were letters, letters every day and I was very happy when I woke up and found the letter on computer from Ted. When we started to write tender letters I began to keep my letters from Oleg. It was already difficalt to explaine that it is only freind's letters. Then longer we had correspondence with Ted I began to understand he is close and dear person for me.

We never didn't have "durty" sexy conversations.I didn't want that, because I didn't want to spoil our relaionship. I felt Ted is very romantic person and for me it was very important to began new relationship from right and good things. I am sure if even one time we allowed yourself to do something bad it will come back to us as punishment. I wanted to be special person for him. I world like to know who I was for him in this time?

Before New Year 1998 he decided to call by phone me first time, of course it was very excited to hear his voice. It was great! He had pleasant quiet voice and tried to talk with me very slowly as teacher at school. But I didn't understand nothing, I forgot all english words and only laughed, and laughed. I was very surprised when Ted told me what he thought about that…lol. My english in this time was terrible. For me it was very great to hear man from the states so far.

I was smiling few days when I thought about this event, I wanted to tell about this everybody. I got a job this time and worked in the store. It was not interesting work, but I could have own money. In February I got first package from Ted, there were a book about Rochester, video and a doll for Alena. I was very pleasant with attention of Ted and was happy. When I looked book I was surprised how it is clean and nice there and in this moment I wanted to see all these nice places by own eyes. Also it was nice Ted wrote some sentences on russian and I thought how it was great if I truly could to visit Rochester. All was as on another planet. The video which Ted sent was good, but it was not good shooting of him. He seemed short small and not nice as I thought before. But to this time I knew what the person is he and I appreciated more his soul and mind than how he could look like. I knew it is very clever and talented, creative person.

We continued to write every day letters and I began to call him. It was good I had some money and could pay big phone bills. Sometimes I even didn't know what I want to say and what I want to hear from him, I wanted to hear his voice, to be close to him. I even didn't understand how I began to fell in love with him, how Ted became necessary thing in my life. I already couldn't live without communication with him. I was worry when I didn't get letters from him and asked God to send me e-mail.

I was working and sometimes it was fun how during my launch when I should to cook dinner for kids on the kitchen I was running between kitchen and told with Ted on computer. Few times we argued but very fast we found piece. I discovered I can't be angry with Ted long time, I felt bad and best way was piece. One time when we told with him in ICQ, Ted told me Deb came and she is here. I misunderstood him and thought they are together near computer and look at writing foolish russian girl. I was shocked. It was late night for me and I should turn off computer suddenly because Oleg came from bed and began to complain I still with computer so late. Yes, it was truth last time I began to prefer spend more time talking on computer with Ted than with him. Ted was in my heart. I felt very bad after this case and called to Ted few times to understand situation right.

I always felt Ted is very sexy man and very often I closed my eyes and imaged how we could making love with him. Before my sleeping my favorite thing was to think about Ted, to image what he is doing now, how he is looking. It made me smile on my face, I began to love him in my heart although I didn't understand this and didn't want to believe in it.

Close to the spring I began to think about visit him in the states. At first it was shocked idea for me, for my family but then with some time this idea wasn't new and I began to do real steps to do this day true. I got my foreign passport and started to keep money for tickets. I knew I will not be able to gather money for tickets, visa, living there. I told about this Ted and he promised to help me and to send invitation.