Of course, he didn't expect this and tried to back off first, but he leaned against the office door. I approached him and our bodies touched. I felt a pleasant warmth and pleasure from such intimacy spreading within me. I was in seventh heaven! I dreamed about this a lot and had waited for this moment!

He was completely angry, with an overabundance of feelings, I was so pleased. And the next second I felt how he took me so tightly in his arms, that I even whispered:

“I am all yours, in your grasp…”

He gently touched my face with his hand and I thought he liked me. Once more he touched me with his lips and I already imagined that he was beginning to kiss me back. Oh, if at that moment he would grab me and lead me to the office couch, then I would give myself to him completely without any hesitation!

But those turned out to be just my dreams and desires, which I had embraced so closely that they appeared to me always and everywhere. I have had many dreams in which my boss and I were together.

But the reality was completely different. He really did grab me by the shoulders, but only to stop me, and his words were lost like the sound of a broken heart:

“What are you doing? Stop! I'm married and I'm not interested in you at all!”

These words were like an ice shower, from which I instantly woke up. When I looked into his eyes, there was only shock and bewilderment. There was no attraction in them, they didn't need me, neither as a woman, nor as another person…

He asked the question again:

“What's wrong with you? Is everything fine?”

“I don't know…” I mumbled nonsense. “How can it be good if I'm sick with you? I love you! I've been going crazy for months…” I said, looking into his eyes.

I prepared these words for him, but I didn't imagine it would be that difficult to pronounce them. And even more, I thought that he would perceive them somehow differently.

“Elvira, what are you talking about?!” He looked at me incredulously.

“I'm telling the truth!” I continued with fervor, oh, what did I have to lose? “I wake up and go to sleep thinking of you! I imagine you in my bed, how we spend our nights on the go! I want to be in your arms. I want to be more to you than a colleague and a subordinate. I can not live without you! I want to be your… lover… Yes, I agree with this humiliating state, just to be close to you.”

He listened to me attentively and just looked at me with his indifferent and chilling gaze.

He spoke again and his words sounded like lightning from heaven:

“I'm married and I love my wife. We are expecting a baby and I am happy with this woman. I don't need anyone else. Not you or any other woman. Except for my wife, I'm not interested. Forgive me.”

He walked away and headed for the door. At the door, he remembered me and asked:

“Are you going home?”

"No…" I answered simply, trying to hide my anger. My world was destroyed. For a long time I was sure that as soon as I opened up to him, he would immediately open up to me. But I was cruelly wrong!

He just went out, got in his car, and drove off. I was left alone with my thoughts. I constantly repeated his words in my head. I couldn't believe it, because everything was so good there in the restaurant! I thought he liked me!

But his words cut off my ears. I couldn’t remember how I got home, how I undressed and went to bed. But the next day I didn't go to work. I couldn't be with the man I loved and desired, after all his words. It was a real torment for me.

I didn’t understand what I was counting on? I was so dumb! I dreamed that he turned his attention to me!

Naturally, my absence from work was noted. It's true, not to Edward himself, but to our office manager, Alexandra. Oh, it would have been better if he called instead of her…

“Elvira?” I heard Alexandra's voice, in which there was suspicion, on the other side of the line. “Why aren't you at work?”

“Um, first of all hi.” I started in a weak voice. God, I didn't even have to pretend, I really felt very bad. “Second, I am sick and cannot work now.”

“Oh I see.” Alexandra said. “Well, Elvira, get well. The whole office is waiting for you.”

“Yes, of course,” I thought sarcastically, “the whole office is waiting! Everyone except Edward, damn it!”

Memories of the day before washed over me like an avalanche and I felt terribly ashamed. The scenes of the interaction with my boss immediately passed one after another: how I flirted with him, how I volunteered to go with him, how I kissed him and how he pushed me away… I buried myself under the covers, trying to escape from these scenes in my head, but they were going nowhere. I felt very bad morally, I was exhausted and had no idea what to do next.